Musings at the End of Our Homeschool Year: A Journal Entry from May 24, 2015

The children and I had a lovely day full of ordinary things yesterday - like so many days before - passed in a happy, busy, good-natured way of being together. I enjoy my children more than can be expressed. They are authentic people who are kind, smart, possess a sense of humor, and are generally charming. I am sure I must be partial in my assessment, but in all honesty, they are excellent human beings and friends.

This is really why I homeschool. We enjoy each others company and we all work towards the mutual building up of each other's strengths, the pursuit of dreams and desired skills, the chipping away at our faults, and the shared dream of a better, kinder, more peaceful world.

I can think of no way I would rather spend my time, vitality, and resources - than in providing for the mutual acceptance, improvement, and inspiration of my family and my community. 

In this way, it matters not whether we, as a family, change the world - or, perhaps I should say, come to see and touch the change we have wrought upon it. We have changed ourselves, and in doing so, have made ripples on that great cosmic pond.

It is more than enough.

Keeping Homeschool Records in Reverse

Our homeschool is really a social and educational experiment. I use it as my test kitchen for all sorts of ideas and to test out theories.

So, I feel like we are a mixed bag of homeschooling. We unschool sometimes, school with structure in some things, have a Waldorf flavor to most things, and certainly trust the children to tell us what they want to learn and try to provide ways to make it all happen. 

We started "back to school" at the end of July. My son was ready to start "counting days" again and I like to start early enough on the 180 day countdown that I can take breaks when I want to. 

We decided that the Midlands Homeschool Convention seemed like a good first day kick off. There were interesting workshops to attend, things to see, and educational opportunities abounded. Also, my son was leaving at the end of the weekend to spend some time with relatives in two different North Carolina cities the following week. Both of the households he was visiting are full of homeschooling cousins. So, I knew the visits would include museums, iPad camp, lots of nature stuff with my sister, and some serious phys. ed. with my brother. Also, what better way to start school than to let the teacher have three days back followed by five days off again. 

This year I am trying to complete my record keeping at the end of each month. I have tried everything from day to day, week to week, and just throwing everything in a box and panicking at the end of the year. I do detailed lesson plans for his Orton Gillingham reading instruction and he has a computer program for his math. His other subjects are usually done in a block schedule style. But, for the end of July, I decided to rely completely on unschooling.

His aunts and uncles posted photos to facebook during his visit. I used those for my photo documenting as well as photos I had taken here during the convention. I feel it is a good practice to snap a pic of homeschooling activities. It is an excellent record keeping device, jogs your own memory about what you did, gives you lots to choose from if you make yearbooks on Mixbook or Shutterfly at the end of the year (as I do), and also gives you good memories to stay up late and cry over when the get older. (Okay- tell me I am not the only one to ever do this!??)

When my son returned home, we had a debriefing. He told me all the cool stuff he had done and I converted it into a table of required subjects that were covered. It is a very simple table in Word. Here is the result:

July 2014 Homeschool Journal

Days of School Completed in July: 8

Dates: 24, 25, 26, 28, 29, 30, 31

Topics explored and activities:

Math	Science	Social Studies	Reading/Literature	Writing	Physical Education
Apple iPod camp for three days	Nature Study at Raleigh Park with creek	Explored Art Museum in Raleigh	Battle of the Books practice *See list of books read for July	Made an iBook	Nature Walk
Using iBooks program on iPod	Natural History Museum in Raleigh to watch medical work being done on Poisonous Dart Frogs	Explored the town of Raleigh with particular notice of wildlife – saw a deer in the wild	Percy Jackson Book Day – Had a party for homeschooling friends to culminate finishing the Rick Riordan books.	Used a storyboard to plan a creative writing assignment	Dueling with balloons and nerf swords game with friends
Multiplication review	Butterfly exhibit, Sloth exhibit, milkweed snake study, turtle exhibit, spider exhibit	Volunteering: Dog Walking in Huntersville, NC	Participated in activities to increase comprehension. Made bead necklaces to symbolize different Greek gods	Helped to make a flyer for a non-profit event – instructed in use of graphic design	Lap Swimming Four Days Basketball time
Computer Skills lesson	Used powerful microscope to study animal biology slides at the nature lab center	Compared and contrasted civic green spaces in NC and SC - Discussion	Compared Greek and Roman gods (names, etc.), made laurel crowns, played Medusa game	Keyboarding Practice	Diving Lessons
Math apps on iPad	Examined real animal skins to compare and contrast vole, rabbit, mole, mouse, a wolf, fox, coyote, black bear, and raccoon	Explored Huntersville, NC – Took notice of neighborhood layout – mental map	Completed Reading: Sarah, Plain and Tall Ralph S. Mouse Hank the Cowdog The Million Dollar Shot Best School Year Ever Dealing With Dragons Tuck Everlasting Big Nate Flips Out Big Nate on a Roll Big Nate in the Zone	Brainstorming for story ideas	Triathlon appropriate for age from chart – Biking, running, and swimming
Sold bracelets made on loom for a profit – worked on business plan for future sales	Attended 2 auto care workshops and completed quiz work on the topics covered – got hands on lab work with a real car	Explored convention exhibits and discussed different religions and viewpoints that were present	Talked to a comic book expert at a convention and looked at vintage comics	Small motor practice with handiwork – made bracelets on loom	Skateboarding session in park

I like this format, as it covers all required subjects for our state and is simple and quick to type out. I will have lesson plans for other weeks that are put together prior to the week, but for our homeschool kick-off, records in reverse worked great. 

What does it take to homeschool? How do I get started?

I often have people ask me how to homeschool. When you start something new, it can be difficult to see what it looks like and to interpret that into personal action. Where do I start? Do I order curriculum? Read twenty books about homeschooling? Order a chalkboard and a globe from Amazon? 

There are entire books written about how to homeschool. Some are very good and helpful. There are numerous articles, blogs, websites, and support groups. But, I am going to break it down to the very first crucial steps to homeschooling. The core of successful homeschooling is that it is a lifestyle. It will take time to bring this new way of looking at the world and at education into your home. It will take time to adjust your thinking to a new paradigm. Give yourself that time. Don't worry that you must have all the answers this week or that you must decide on your child's learning style by Saturday. First and foremost, homeschooling is a journey that you take with your child. Take some time to think about what that journey will look like, what to pack, and above all, count the cost. 

Homeschoolers spend a lot of time with their children. A LOT of time. Take a look at your home life. Do you enjoy spending time with your children? Are you able to instruct them and coach them through tasks? Are you able to be with them for the majority of the day, the week, the month, the year and enjoy it? This may seem like a simple question - but more than what kind of curriculum to use or which group to join, this question can make or break your homeschool experience. Don't despair if your answer is no. Are you willing to work at it? Are you willing to spend time taking an honest look at your home life and working together with your children to create an environment conducive to learning? No home is perfect, but you will all be happier if you can create an environment that includes what you and your children need to get along well with each other. This is perhaps the first and most important step to homeschooling.

When you homeschool, you are the one calling the shots. You must be able to take responsibility for creating your own program. There are many options and you can certainly use a program that lays everything out for you, a computer based curriculum, or a satellite school. But, at the end of the day, you must decide what is best for your child. This can seem overwhelming to new homeschoolers. If you are used to having a school or a teacher tell you exactly what to do and when, the new freedom can feel... well, free. Freedom is a great thing, but it can feel scary at first. Give yourself time to adjust to this brave new world. You really can do it, but you will need to put in some research time on the computer, reading books, and/or talking to other homeschoolers. You are now a teacher as well as a parent. You will need some teacher planning time, some time to invest in your own learning, and down time to rest and rejuvenate. Make sure you have a realistic expectation of the time and energy this will take on your part. 

Finally, homeschooling does cost money. There are certainly ways to reduce the cost, but it is not free. For one thing, there will need to be a parent at home and guiding the homeschooling. My husband and I have always worked and homeschooled. It can be done. It is not easy. We have worked schedules that we could arrange around having a parent home and, some years, we have also had to hire a caregiver. I will not go into all the details, but you will most likely have to limit your career choices or at least one of you will. There are certainly careers that will work well with flexible schedules, but not all jobs are conducive to flexibility. Some of you may have an adult in the home that can financially support a stay at home parent. Still, that parent is loosing the option to build their career while the children are homeschooling. This is something to take into consideration when you decide to homeschool. 

You will also have to purchase materials. You can limit your spending by making great use of the public library, going to used curriculum sales, shopping for used items online, and even swapping materials in your homeschool group. But, you will spend some money on curriculum, books, microscopes, instruments, sports equipment, and more books. You will also spend some money on classes, museums, field trips, and co-ops. The amount each family will spend will vary greatly, but a general rule is that if you need to cut corners on time, expect to spend a little more money. 

I absolutely love homeschooling. I have homeschooled both of my children for their entire education to date. I have a high school and a middle school student and we love our homeschool life. I really believe that anyone who can look up answers and read can homeschool their children. But, you must be willing to look up answers. When I am helping new homeschoolers get started for the first time, these are the things I wish they knew. There are amazing benefits to homeschooling - you just have to be willing to put in some elbow grease. 

Intentionally Keeping House or The Karate Kid Cleans My Shower

 Normally, I don't like to clean anything. In a perfect world, I could afford household help and would hire some person who believed cleaning was their life-calling, pay them a very good living wage, and treat them like family. (I add this part because there is something in me that cries out against hiring someone to do my dirty work. It would feel wrong and I would want to make sure, even in my fantasy world, that this person was properly compensated and in no way diminished by doing my chores.) But, to get back to the intentional part of this post...

We live in a very small apartment and have no dishwasher. We don't even have laundry hook-up. We have lived here for about six years, so it is normal for us. When we first moved in, I thought that simplifying my life would be very zen and would help me focus on what was important. It did, sometimes. I also had to move here because it was cheaper, but I like to focus on the glass being half full. So, my glass is half full of that lemonade I made out the of the lemons life has doled out. Perspective is everything.

Every now and again I will have some sort of spiritual experience around household tasks and I inevitably fall into pondering the universe, the sensual experience of cleaning house, and the meaning of life in general. Usually I am in a dead rush to get the cleaning done, cook an allergen free meal, homeschool two children, work two jobs, and keep up with doctor appointments. But, today, I was off from my work at the library and had some time to slow down and catch up on household maintenance.

Washing dishes can really be a lovely experience, if you can take the time to think about washing dishes. The hot water with lemony smelling soap, the soap suds, the soft cloth you wash with. It is a very satisfying thing to see the progression of dishes making their way from the "dirty" side to the "clean" side. Something about it feels renewing. Today my senses feasted on the tangy smell of cleaner, the crisp feel of clean linens as I made the bed, the steamy water in the sink as I wiped each dish, and the timelessness of putting the cast iron skillet on to heat. I realized as I pondered on the day and what it made it feel so right, that is was the act of being in each task when I was there that made it pleasing.

While I was making the bed, I was making the bed. While I was cooking lunch, I was cooking lunch. The act of intentionally taking part in each task made me take notice of the task itself. The senses became engaged.
I passed this on to my ten year old son in a humorous way. He is not so keen on household tasks, though he helps when asked. While I was keeping house this morning, he was indulging in a viewing of the original Karate Kid movie. I told him when it was over, that he would need to help me with the cleaning.

When the final credits rolled, I took him to the bathroom and pointed out that the shower was in need of a good scrubbing. I armed him with cleaner, a scrub brush, a rag, and a retired tooth brush for the cracks between the tiles. I explained that like Daniel in the Karate Kid, he was about to have a chance to build his muscles with repetitive motion and household chores. I am sure you will not be surprised when I say that he looked very skeptical. I showed him how "scrub on - scrub off" could work on the tiles. He looked even more skeptical, but he set to work with a good will. It is worth noting here that I thought this would be a short lived project, but figured any help with scrubbing a bathroom is a good thing.

Apparently intentional cleaning can work for kids too. He scrubbed for a long time and... was happy about it and proud of the finished product. My shower looks the best it has in ages.

The Best Parenting Advice I Can Offer

My children are quickly growing up. My oldest will turn 15 in two weeks. The time really does go by so fast. I often have people ask me questions about parenting. I really like both of my children and enjoy spending time with my teenager (I enjoy spending time with my 10 year old as well, but people seem less surprised by that.) When I think about my parenting journey, I can recall a time in my life when I experienced a paradigm shift that changed the way I saw our home life.

When my daughter was two, she used to throw massive tantrums. Really. People who know her now think I made this up, but, I was there and I can promise you that she gave me a run for my money. I was frustrated and felt like a failure as a parent. I was angry that she was so difficult to live with and I really questioned if having a second child would be a good idea and something that I could handle. I read LOTS of parenting books and asked lots of questions and attended parenting conferences in an attempt to figure out what other people were doing and what might work to restore my sanity and bring peace to our home. I won't bore you with the details of every step in that process, let me just skip to the bottom line. 

I realized that many people have the mentality that it is the kid(s) vs. the parent(s). The strong willed child has pitted herself against you and you must find a way to subdue her. Let me tell you that this is the most damaging way of looking at your parent-child relationship. What I discovered is that this mindset of being the one in "control" and having to bring your little ones into submission is setting your home up to be a battlefield. Let me assure you that it is not parents vs. kids or kids vs. parents. It is a family vs. the problems and challenges the world throws at you. You and your child are on the same team. This may sound simple, but it changed my life. 

When you realize that loving a child (or a spouse for that matter) means that you are on the same team and that loving someone means that you are actively pursuing growth and nurturing for that person's best self - you are already more than half way to a more peaceful home life. Stop trying to control your child or have the last word and embrace a paradigm that allows you to be you and them to be them. There is so much more to this concept, but the first step is to realize that you are on the same team. 

A few books that are helpful is pursuing a non-adversarial parenting style are:

Raising Your Spirited Child by Mary Sheedy Kurcinka

The Successful Child by William and Martha Sears 

The Natural Child: Parenting From the Heart by Jan Hunt

Positive Parenting for a Peaceful World by Ruth Tod

Hope is the thing with feathers...

     

Hope is the thing with feathers 

That perches in the soul, 

And sings the tune--without the words, 

And never stops at all,

And sweetest in the gale is heard; 

And sore must be the storm 

That could abash the little bird 

That kept so many warm.

I've heard it in the chillest land, 

And on the strangest sea; 

Yet, never, in extremity, 

It asked a crumb of me.

Emily Dickinson

We are pressing onward. In the midst of chronic illness and other related trials, I am gifted with hope for the future and hope that we will see the end of this particular run of challenges soon. I keep thinking to myself, that the only way through is forward. Surely on the other side of this week, this month, this year, there will be a lessening of pressing stresses and life can return to a more "normal" pace.

Whit has started weekly injections, weekly blood work, more daily medications, and is still getting his infusions and supplements. He feels good today. It is hard to predict what each day will be like. We are living with the constant up and down of good days followed by bad days followed by awful days followed by a great day. This is the kind of schedule that really teaches you to enjoy the small things in life - quiet moments of cuddling on the couch, reading books out loud together, laughter, beauty, love...

People are so kind. Lots of people ask about Whit. The neighborhood where we live has nice places to walk. The shop owners ask about him when they see me out and about. My wonderful, encouraging co-workers are always checking in with me to see how the week is going. My family is incredibly helpful and supportive. I have friends that are always checking up on me. I am grateful.

I have hesitated to write much about Whit's health issues. There is his privacy to consider. I also feel unsure about how much to share of my personal feelings about his illness for many reasons. But, recently, I began to search for blogs and information about children with severe ulcerative colitis and related auto immune disease issues. I did not find much. What I did find was incredibly encouraging to me. It was so affirming to read about other's experiences with their children and how they have coped. This made me feel that maybe it would help someone else to put myself out there. Whit's combination of diseases does not get that much press. He has celiac disease, severe food allergies, ulcerative colitis, and asthma. Right now, it is the ulcerative colitis that is causing him so many problems. His colon is ulcerated and will bleed out if he is not treated. The struggle since his disease went active again in September, has been to control his bleeding, pain, and other symptoms. He has to be on steroids that cause swelling, weight gain, emotional swings, and sleeplessness. His medications can affect his liver and he has to have weekly blood work to check his liver numbers. They also destroy his immune system.

Maybe I will take this post down at some point, but for now, I feel it is okay to post about our family and our struggle with ulcerative colitis. Whit is running out of time to be on the steroids. You cannot take them long term. He is stepping down now. Over the next few weeks, he will be tapered off of them completely and the infusions and injections will need to sustain his progress. If not, we will be facing some big decisions about how to continue his treatment. We are hoping for the best. As I listened to the birds singing outside my window, as spring creeps in, I was reminded that hope is the thing with feathers. I do hope this spring brings a new season of health to my Whit.

Homeschooling in a time of Colitis

It has been a long time since my last entry. Sometimes life is interrupted by unforeseen circumstances - in this case, ulcerative colitis.

We have lived with ulcerative colitis for a long time. My son was diagnosed with it at three years old, for seven years he has had times of remission and times when the disease was active again. When times are good, he has enjoyed long periods of feeling energetic and healthy. When the disease flares up, times are difficult.

He has been on daily medications since he was three years. He also takes probiotics, vitamins, and eats a careful, colitis-friendly diet. Despite our best efforts, there are still flare ups.

This fall has been a long, hard battle with ulcerative colitis. It first started up again in September. We have tried many things and searched out possible reasons for why things can't seem to calm down... but we are still fighting the good fight and my son is still in the midst of pain, stomach issues, and the uncertainty of what each day will be like. It is hard for anyone to suffer from an illness with chronic pain, but for children, it can be especially challenging. It has been awhile since I have posted an entry here. Life with colitis has taken up most of our time this school year. We are now trying an infusion treatment to see if it can bring him some relief. I hope to get back to posting more soon. I hope I will have more to say about parenting and homeschooling during times of illness. At this moment, I am still pretty tired and too much in the midst of the struggle to write much.